The Very Last Thing I Had To Write For College, Upon The Submission Of Which Several Months After Commencement I Received My Diploma, or "On The Outside" My charge is primarily to forward the production and marketing of a product. This product does not as yet exist in any physical form, of course, but it is a clear enough concept. As a product and as a project, the work requires much rhetoric and wrangling of truth. I have at least three audiences for my arguments. I must argue to a theoretical public that they should buy the product, though I'll not be addressing that issue for some time, if ever. I must convince the potential investors, manufacturers and regulators that issues of public interest and an initial market have already been addressed, so that they might provide funding and other necessary support to the search for further markets, but I have not quite yet had to address any of these interests, either. Most tangibly, I must convince the men who have been engaged in this project for over six years that I am in some way furthering their goals in return for the meager wage I receive. Primarily this involves constructing a pleasing narrative for their ears, one that places their project at center as the hero, and me humbly by the side, as protector and shepherd. (This shows a clear parallel to Eco's heroic narrative discussed in our last paper.) More specifically, I cast myself in an image that assuages their middle-aged egos. I must appear intelligent and shrewd, but in a naive, academic way. They must be made to remember their own blinking emergence from their undergraduate education, and quickly recall their progression forth from there. They must be able to transfer onto me the regrets of the interceding years, remember the mistakes they made and imagine themselves either steering me away from them, or knowingly watching me stumble about like 8mm films from their own youths. The notion that I am manipulating adult men with children of their own and businesses through which they channel many hundreds of thousands of dollars a year may seem arrogance, and may be that. If so, then I really can't explain why they employ me, so opaque is the rhetoric that I have exercised on myself. Regardless, everyday I make the argument that I am accomplishing something with my time, which is no longer my time, and is now their money. "I'm thinking an outline," I say. "What I see here is a lot of really enthusiastic research and a lot of ideas. Given my relative inexperience with this kind of work, I think that my role here might be best begun as an organizer, a fresh set of eyes to look over the products of all your efforts so far. I'm looking forward to just diving into the material you have on the project and seeing, just by virtue of never having seen it before, where there are gaps, where there are overlaps, where we can obviously move forward." I said this, plus a lot of verbal pauses and acquiescent silences in which he could speak, to my boss in my first week here. He seemed genuinely excited. Coming out of my mouth, it seemed so clear to me that I was saying nothing, or that I was constructing a pleasing narrative that could wrap all of the nothing I would be saying for the next few months. Those irrelevant articles I read all day? Those are going to fill some gaps. Those guarded emails that I CC to you commenting to the more starry-eyed partner in the project, that some of these articles he's referring me to aren't very relevant? That's going to trim some overlap. None of this is intended to add up to anything--what is the product supposed to add up to anyway, other than a pointless headache? It's just intended to make me look busy. The product is the brainchild of one Brooklyn native and long-time truck driver who now seems to have ascended to a more affluent position in his community. He is warm, charismatic, and visionary, of a demeanor that would suit well a friendly and indefatigable businessman, or an insidious con artist. His tales of consorting with criminals, driving trailers full of illegal goods around the country and finally being tried on felony possession with intent to sell are captivating in his chuckling delivery. He makes it very clear that it was a younger, dumber he doing all those things. Not that he doesn't take responsibility for those actions, but boy is he glad to be rid of that punk. It could make a good book, light reading with a heavy moral, or the opposite. This is an opportunity that he recognizes, and imagines as a potential source of funding for his pet product, as though major publishers were sort of high-end pawnshops for life stories. I like to think he's wrong. I'm not sure he is. This is a problem with trying to shape the truth; you have to first know what it is, lest it shape you. Shape me it did, eventually, so that I forgot that I was lying, or intentionally misleading, at all. This either had the effect of letting me let my lie fall away, or letting me forget that it was doomed to fall away from the start, so that I stopped trying to construct in the background any sort of true work to show when the request came in. When that request did come in, it did so in a great flood of truth. The truth was that no one was deceived. "So, are you still just in the researching phase," asked my boss. "Do you have anything on paper yet?" This question came out of the blue almost two months into my working there. It was not an angry question; he asked as though he were guilty for expecting me to have anything to show him. I in fact had written some things. Several pages of a Word document were filled at that point with sets of two or three sentences crafted to begin a great sales pitch or a great business plan or a great entrepreneurial grant proposal. This is to say that I had very little to show for my time. What I did have was a carefully honed skepticism and derision for the whole concept of the project, which became the seed for the first of the real rhetorical work that was my charge all along. I wrote two paragraphs, detailing all of the reasons why the project was clearly misguided and so ill fated. The product was, by its nature, entrenched in controversy and societal ill-will, and there was little to be done about that. The product had been championed by a great many inspired researchers and rhetoricians, people with something to say, and people who could say anything, and it had failed for reasons that would confound any logical mind. Our project's deviation from the product was novel, at best. We would invariably come off as shiftless hucksters selling snake oil--nay, poisons labeled such--in a hi-tech plastic bottle. And that, I then wrote, was exactly our point. We were not, in fact, selling the snake oil, the poison, but only the bottle to contain it. People would continue to use this dangerous--even evil--product as they had for decades, but housed in our suite of protective bottle technologies, they would be given a new kind of tool for limiting their insatiable appetite for death. The "real world," as I have briefly encountered it, is entirely about selling. Most of the resume advice I recieved in my first months, which was most of the advice I recieved, said so explicitly. "Most resumes get thrown in the trash right away. You have to catch their attention. You gotta sell 'em. You gotta sell yourself." I'm seeing that the salesman is the new proselyte, the pitch his new scripture. And I'm seeing we must all make ourselves in his image. Even if I am so bold a whore as to resist the default salesfloor, the entry-level position, the freelance job, I will still need to sell something: espresso, maybe, or the things I write. Twenty hours a week at Seattles Best, and some hiply simple CSS to style a rant, a gently servitude for far-off freedom dues. So, I will learn how to sell, sell myself a life of selling, and know that the best way to sell successfully is to love the product, and that the second best way is to hate it. Copyright 2005 Nicholas Hall

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What, like he got a fairly strong vocabulary, and am pretty well-tuned to grammar and whats 'proper', and barrel ahead and gleefully violate rules left and right anyway. I've got a fairly strong vocabulary, and am pretty well-tuned to grammar and whats 'proper', and barrel ahead and gleefully violate rules left and right anyway. I've got an ear for dialogue; I generally can get a bonus point.